What do you do...

[Zendrick]

Graduated university with an Honors BA specialization in classical studies. AAAAANNNND now just work in a grocery store until i find my calling.. or something awesome to do with the degree choice

[Ricardus]

I have a small webdevelopment company. Studied international development and socio-economic development studies on the university though.. Haven't used it yet

I tought your work was fuck up tek altar only

[Kat Asherstone]

Kinda disabled as in considered uncapable of studying or working but still officially just unemployed and getting unemployment benefits but doing fine. Mental health issues. Physical is ok.

To be exact, the mental health issues are not of psychotic or very serious type, more like sheytloads of milder stuff, just in huge quantities.

According to a psychologist, 3-5 different personality disorders are possible or likely: schizoid (altenately avoidant), paranoid, borderline (but it's unlikely, because usually people with AD(H)D don't have borderline personality disorder but AD(H)D symptoms often make one seem like a borderliner), avoidant (alternately schizoid) and dependent. So, at least schizoid OR avoidant (they both used to be classified under the label of "schizoid" earlier), paranoid and dependent. That makes 3 personality disorders that seem to exist according to psychologist.

AD(H)D is quite clear, confirmed by 2 different specialists during my lifetime.

"Moderate" (not severe, not mild) OCD confirmed.

Bipolar Type II is quite possible, my father also has these tendencies but not as badly as I do, but it could just as well be a side effects of the antidepressants I've eaten for 8 years in a row. Now on SSRI's, benzodiazepines, benzodiazepine like acting hypnotics and minimal dose of antipsychotics which I use for hypomanic episodes if I don't sleep or eat for 5 days in a row but only keep on raving...

To be officially disabled and on disability is my long term aim but since I'm only 29 it's not granted. It is possible I get it, but not yet. Have to wait for some time, like maybe couple of years until they decide I'm a hopeless case and give up. Oh, and I don't drink at all (anymore) or do illlegal drugs (and this is not a disclaimer but truth) so one can't say I'm a junkie or a drunk.

I'm satisfied, not cutting my wrists or weeping, I do fine and all is good - but would like a girlfriend and a job. Both are rather impossible due to my personality "disorders" or traits (job, because it's 2013 now and not 1987 - in 1987 it would be different) so I can just keep on dreaming :--)

The Big Lie.

All of your life, you've been lied to. You've been told what life is supposed to be about. Grow up, do well in school, make friends, get a girlfriend or boyfriend, get a good job, get married, get a nice house and have kids, watch TV, go to church, vote, find some hobbies to entertain you, donate money to charity, go on vacation, get old, retire, spend time with grandkids, look back on your life with nostalgia, look forward to the afterlife of your choosing. This is what you're supposed to do. This is what normal people do. This is what everyone else is doing. Oh sure, there are a few aberrations here and there, sometimes some people slip off this track, but you can get back on at any time. Of course, when you actually look at the world around you, you may see something entirely different. See that young married couple living next door, with the wife gardening in the front yard while the kids play outback ? She's snowed under Xanax all the time, without which she'd be in a continuous state of anxiety. And her six year old son, he's following straight in mom's footsteps already, taking his daily dose of Ritalin to keep him tranquil enough to sit still all day at school. She stopped sleeping with her husband several years ago, but that's okay, cause he sneaks off a couple times a week and has sex with the street prostitutes in the back seat of his car, or a nearby hotel. He feels bad for them, and tips them extra. His favorite prostitute is always glad to see him, because he's pleasant enough and an easy seventy-five dollars. Too bad they can't all be like him. She gets beaten up and raped by John's multiple times a year, but that's okay, she can handle it, cause even at it's worst this job is still better than what she went through as a child. Besides, there's no other way she could support her crack cocaine habit. And the cop who tries to arrest her, last night he arrested the neighborhood marijuana dealer, then went home and got nice and legally drunk on his Jack Daniels. And the cops daughter, the pretty high school cheerleader, sneaks off and vomits after every meal so she won't get fat. But these are all small scale problems. Don't forget that, several times a century, often enough to happen at least once during the average human lifetime, all the most powerful nations of the world divide up into sides and begin slaughtering anyone they can find on the opposing side by the millions. This is agreed by all to be unfortunate, but necessary. And the city you live in, if you're in a western country and living in a city, has already been targeted by some country's nuclear weaponry. A few pushes of the right buttons, and you'll be vaporized or survive and live in some radioactive wasteland. But that's okay, because it probably won't happen in the immediate future, so you might as well go out and but this week's groceries. Beneath the thin veneer of civilization lies a howling madness, and the average normal human being has the ability to commit genocide during the day, then come home and tuck the kids in at night, or to ignore the pain of a billion people in misery while mowing the lawn or doing Christmas shopping. The big lie is that all of the problems of human life are separate. If you compartmentalize them all, you can convince yourself that once you lose that forty pounds, or get more money, or get your husband to stop beating you, or finally kick that addiction, you'll be a normal happy person like everyone else. And once you get the right politician elected, or win the war, or convert the infidels to your religion, the world will be a happy place. The problems of life are all symptoms of the same cause. The locks on your doors which you need to keep out burglars, the schoolyard bully, the serial killer, the drug addict, the billionaire who thinks he's being exploited by the poor, the millions of soldiers fighting for peace, the enslavement or slaughter of entire races of people, and your own unhappiness, are all interconnected. They are all part of one problem. I wish I could define the problem for you , or offer a solution. Human beings seem to have a basic design flaw. We're fucked up species, striving to be healthy and happy while simultaneously destroying ourselves and each other in a million different ways. The only positive note I can end this on is that it's better to understand all this than to be ignorant of it, I think. Now.. It's time for bed.

Inspirational

[Aileth]

I'm currently working with a translation company as a project manager, freelance translator and any other things I can help out with.

http://www.kennistranslations.com/

[Andoriel]

Originaly i finished financial services as 3 year program in college. After graduation i didnt realy wanted to become a stock broker and the stuff they thought seamed more how to do things but not why we do it. Soo after 3 months of unsuccesfull job hunt i decided to go to university and do honours major in economy and minor in political science. Before uni i allready had strong marxist tendancies but after going into theories of old and new capitalist way of thinking in school it became more solid. Besdes school i work as alife guard(must save all the hot chicks!) and do soccer referee for adult/highschool levels.
İf the job hunt once again go bad after graduation you might see me in europe doing my masters in international trade or econometrics.Possibly in vienna. Maybe in there pang will be more lag free and playable for me, i realy do miss it

[Toby Frost]

I am a Weapons Director for the USAF.. The name is a bit confusing because I don't actually handle or mess with weapons but I control aircraft in a tactical environment where my job is to prevent conflict of airborne assets. By preventing conflict I have to stack airspace to make sure gunships and Close Air Support assets can employ effectively without striking friendly's while also ensuring the Intelligence, Surveillance and Recon assets can effectively track targets all without hitting each other . I also manage the tactical air refueling plan for all of the war zone.. So any fighters that need fuel I would be controlling them for the join-up with the KC-10 or KC-135. For any dynamic targeting or classified missions my voice is the guy on the radio telling pilots when and how forcefully to employ with what weapons.

And for my desk job while I am not deployed I am in charge of tactical (Controlling airplanes tactical not running around shooting people tactical) training for a Squadron of 300 people.

[James Blackburn]

better don't mess with frost

for now i'm working with metal, pouring all kind of ornaments for woodcrafts, but orginaly i'm still in school(last year) to become a woodworker, i'm tended on old fashion furnitures such as (rococo, baroque, art Nouveau e.t.c) all kind of styles funrnitures actualy, after this year i hope to find a job where i can engage with wood-carving, tho i doubt that it will happen

[Charha]

The Big Lie.

All of your life, you've been lied to. You've been told what life is supposed to be about. Grow up, do well in school, make friends...

I used to think like that when I was a teenager. I used to think that "normal & happy" was a lie of some sort and that people who try to lead happy lives just end up taking anti-depressants and running around in circles, and that in the end of the day everything is just a steaming pile of fruitless angst. For a while I thought it was cool to be all radical and cynical and actually see through this "web of lies".

But now it seems to me that as people get older, they tend to make choices that slowly lead them to doing what they want to do and being who they want to be even if they don't always realize what they're doing. It's normal not to be happy all the time. And it's perfectly normal to be content and happy just being an Average Joe. There's also nothing wrong to find yourself not quite representing these models that society considers to be "the norm".

My friends and neighbors are cool people. Sometimes they're happy, sometimes they're depressed. Sometimes they worry about their kids or their jobs. But we get by and there's no shame in that. I feel it's important to stick together, try not to be an asshole and enjoy the little things. Not everyone has to climb mt. Everest or come up with a cure for cancer. It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice.

[Glarundis]

yeah. it all depends on your notion of happiness. if people think being happy is having the perfect job, perfect house, perfect everything, etc etc, then yeah, they'll fail to acquire that and fall in depression and stuff like that (not the only reason for depression, but this is one thing that can happen when ppl think like this, imo)

[LaLuna]

I`m originally a stage designer for theatre, but now mainly work with designing exhibitions for museums. Work freelance so I get to see many different institutions in Sweden but also abroad. Worked on a great project in South east Asia for 3 years that resulted in an exhibition abut the Mekong river and lots of new friends in Cambodia, Laos and Vietnam.